Fuck Buddies?

I went on a date with Mark, this guy that has asked me out a few times. I finally gave in and said yes.
We went out to eat and we saw the movie Failure to Launch (really funny by the way). The date went really good and I ended up going to his place to hang out. We had some beer and his roommates were cool, we all chatted a while. Eventually Mark took me to his room and we started making out. He is a really amazing kisser. I was really turned on and I could tell he was turned on too. His pants had a big bulge and my hands kept roaming there too. I thought he wanted to move on to more than just kissing, because his hands were going under my skirt.
Its kind of weird the way things went though. I took off my top and he kissed my chest around my bra. When I went to take it off, he was like no, but we still kept making out. His hand felt so good... you really have no idea how good. I haven't been teased like that in a long time. After driving me crazy for an eternity, I went to unbutton and unzip his pants... but he pushed my hands away and he said no. I was finally like, "what's going on?"
I was wet and ready and I could tell he was in the mood too.
He went on to explain that he didn't want to do anything, because he liked me more than that. He didn't want to just sleep with me and that's it. He saw me as someone that could be a girlfriend.
I really felt so uncomfortable.... because, I don't want a relationship. I ended up just kissing him after this. Maybe I gave him the wrong idea... I don't know. We made out and did the touchy feely high school stuff. It was fun and then I left.
The next day he called me and he asked what I was doing and invited me to come over. I went over and we ended up making out again. I had to stop it though, because my ex is already in love with me and messing with my mind... I don't need someone else to do it.
I told him I don't want a relationship, but that we could be friends and that I was open to still having fun. Then I took of my shirt and my bra. He was in shock for a second, but then I think his hormones kicked in full gear, because he was all over me. We had sex and it was crazy, because the door to his room was slightly open and all his roommates must have heard and maybe saw too (Plus when I left his roommate Sean had wicked look on his face).
I really don't know if he's okay with the friend thing, but I didn't want him to have a false hope for a relationship. Maybe he will become a regular fuck buddy.... that would be great. I'll just have to wait and see.

Yesterday I was talking about masturbation with a friend (I’m open about this sort of thing), and her friend was there and she looked at me like I was diseased. So now I have to just explain my opinions on masturbation. I know I’ve mentioned it before, but this girl really pissed me off. Who does she think she is, a fuckin’ saint? She probably does the same things…. I really hate when people act like they don’t think or do things.
I first remember masturbating when I was 6 I think, I was staying at my Uncles for the summer. My sister and I were in the living room and I was lying on the floor with a pillow and I was pushing my pubic bone into the pillow and was humping and grinding. My sister asked me what I was doing and well…..I really didn’t know. My sister was 8 at the time and she told me not to do it in front of people. She didn’t say it was wrong or anything my guess is she did it too.
It’s kind of odd that my family accepts masturbation as normal, especially my mom, she is extremely religious (she goes to church everyday). My guess is it’s because she was a single mother and was only human, I mean she never dated- she had to have masturbated at least a few times. I’m not being perverted; my point is its okay.
My sister was 13 when she started reading those sappy sex novels, my mom’s response was, ‘well, at least she’s reading’…
I remember when I used to go to church all the time and I did the wait until I’m married pledge. They said masturbation was bad and that guys and girls shouldn’t do anything beyond a simple kiss. That a guy touching your knee is bad and could lead to sin. Well, don’t get me wrong I still respect the people that do keep the pledge (even though I didn’t). It’s just not realistic for me. How can you abstain from sex without masturbating?
I lost my virginity (I was 17), and it wasn’t really the greatest experience. Well, I told my mom and she was very frank which I really admire. She’s never been scared to talk to me and my sister about taboo issues. She told me I would have to go to the gyno and that she would take me and everything. Then she said something I won’t forget. It kind of showed that she wasn’t against masturbation at all and that she knew it wasn’t bad… she said now you’re going to crave sex and think about more…. My mom really helped me feel better I mean I had broken my promise with God and was evil in the sight of all my ‘Christian’ friends. She didn’t judge me like a lot of people do about sex. She reassured me that it was fine and that I was old enough to choose how I want to live and that having sexual urges and desires was normal. Okay... She didn’t out right say ‘I masturbate’ or anything but she was saying that she and other women out there go through the same thing.
I know so many girls that act like masturbation is bad, or say they don’t do it. It’s hard to believe; Kids do it and don’t even know. I was a kid and did it without knowing. It’s totally natural. Things make us laugh and cry, and things can arouse us too. Like when a guy touches our hand and there is that spark, because you really like him, our bodies have these natural reactions that we can not control.
It’s important to masturbate. Masturbation is the greatest releaser of stress and its fun…. More importantly…..how can you enjoy yourself with someone else if you don’t feel comfortable with yourself or know how your body works? I like my body and I know what feels good for me. When I’m naked I don’t feel ugly, I feel beautiful and sexy and it’s because I’ve taken the time to explore my body. When you fully appreciate your body you can be yourself and enjoy yourself.
And ultimately, I think if I didn’t do it I’d be all up tight and a bitch!

I Called Him.....

Okay, so I ended up calling the ex…
He came over and as soon as I opened the door he started kissing me. We didn’t even make it to the bed room He started tugging at my clothes and took them off of me…. He had me lay on the floor and he went down on me… he is the best at oral and I’m not just exaggerating. He really takes his time and drives me crazy! I came like 3 times then we fucked. He ended up sleeping over (not part of the original plan). He left this morning… after joining my morning shower -he helped me with my routine and then some!
It was really fun and it felt so good. But….. right before he left he kissed me good bye and then he said what I didn’t want to hear…. I love you…. and he gave me a kiss. It was sweet but I could tell he really meant it and not in a friend way. To him it is way more than sex.
The bigger problem is now I want to have sex with him again. And he already sent me a text about hanging out later and maybe doing more. We’re good friends now, but I have a funny feeling he’s trying to go back to a relationship, and I don’t want it. AAhhh! This sucks!
I’ll try not to worry about it…. Just let it rest a while before we have sex again…. Maybe I should just find a new hook up guy so I don’t hurt my ex… that’ll probably be better. But we fit so well together, I think I’ll just remind him that I don’t want to be in a relationship again…that’s what I’ll do…

Should I....

Sundays are always rather dull. I should be working on my papers for school, but instead here I am doing everything else.
It been a week since I've had sex, plus this week Im craving it more than usuall (probably because its been a week!!!).
So Im debating....Should I call the ex? I know I probably will.
Its just that I feel like I want him more after we fuck. I don't even want a relationship with him (other than freindship), but we fit so well together in bed. He knows the things I like and what drives me crazy. He knows how to tease me... this is something a lot of guys can't seem to do. So many guys just rush into things.
Well, I'll tell you what happens....

My imagination at play

So have you ever been to an adult chat?
I'v gone on a few times. At one point I had an email buddy we would exchange stories. Here's one of the first stories I wrote him. It's one of my favorite....
I hope you enjoy!!!!

One rainy day I went to do my laundry. The laundromat was the small one on the corner, it was empty the way it usually is on a rainy afternoon. I have on grey sweats and a tight black baby-t. The t- is short, so my lower stomach is showing. The top of my tattoo peaks out from my sweats which are rolled at the top, because they are so big on me. I always wait til' I have no clothes left, so I don't have any underwear on. I put the darks in the first two machines, then the lights in the next two. Next my bras and undies, I like to wash them seperate so they won't get ruined. I put soap in all the machines, put in the money, and start all the machines. I sit on a machine and I open my cosmo-magazine. What a crappy day... The machine moves gently, I feel a tingle rise within me. I scoot back on the machine and part my legs slightley. The vibrations from the machine feel good on me. I put my magizine on my lap and slide my right hand under the magazine. I rub myself gently over my sweat-pants. Suddenly I hear the bells on the door jingle as you walk in. I flush, hoping you won't realize what I've been doing. You smile at me, I smile back. I notice your gorgeous green eyes. You look so good. I see your muscular arms, you look so hot in your simple grey t-shirt. You lift up your laundry basket to put your clothes in the machine. You glance up at me, I blush, I've been staring at you since you came in. Suddenly I hear a buzz from my first machine. Then they all go off. I smile at you again as I slide off the machine. I grab a cart and pull my clothes out of all the machines, I go to put them in the dryers, throw in some dryer sheet, I put in coins and press for them all to start. I turn around and bump into you. We stand pressed together. I hope you won't feel the heat coming from my body Im burning with desire and the body contact makes me want you more."Here," you say, "You dropped these". Your voice sounds so good, I imagine, what it would sound like moaning my name. I look up at your hand, you have one of my thongs in your hand.'Thanks,' I say, as you hand them to me. I smile at you, 'My favorite pair'. You laugh at this and your cheeks turn red, I notice your eyes looking down at my shirt. My nipples are hard, and you can notice them through my tight shirt. I turn around and open one of the dryers, and throw it it, I feel so dumb, why am I so horny? I never should have sat on the machine.You return to your clothes and continue loading your machines. I sit on the folding table, facing the dryers. I open my magizine oblivious to what's on the page. I look at you through the reflection on the dryers. Your jeans are slightly loose, but I can make out the shape of your tight ass. I can see your shoulder and your arms. I want those arms wrapped around my body and your hands to explore me. You finish starting the machines, you turn around and I quickly look down at my magazine."So,what are you reading?" you walk around the table toward me, and glance at the page. I turn beat red-the article is 101 Sex Tips From Men. You turn red too as you glance at the page. Damn Cosmo. I laugh softly and you do too. "That seems like a fun article, what does number 30 say?"I glance down at the page smirking, 'It says.... -While making out pull your panties to the side and show me how you like to touch yourself when Im not around-' I smile at you 'So, is that really something you like?'"Oh yeah, I think that is diffenitly hot," you look at my breast again and then your eyes run down my body. This time niether of us looks away. I can tell you like what you see. your eyes go back up my body to my eyes. You move your left hand and place it on my knee. I move my magizine off my lap and onto my side. I part my legs slightly so that you know I want you to touch me. You move closer to me and your hand slides to my inner thigh. You stand in front of me, our eyes still locked, You lean toward me and I toward you. Our lips meet as your hand grazes me between my legs. I moan softly into your mouth parting my lips as your tongue meets mine. Your hand softly rubs my clit, your other hand slowly runs along the edge of my sweatpants. Your hands stop and you part from our kiss. You look around nerviously, suddenly aware of your surroundings. I smile at you, my breast rise and fall Im breathing heavy with exitement.'Noones around,' I tell you, I grab your hands and pull you toward me. You look around still nervous I pull you toward me more and slide toward you on the edge of the table. I spread my legs wide, so they can go around you. You smile, I guess your no longer worried because you lean in and kiss me again this time both your hands are at my waist tugging at the elastic on my pants. I lift my ass so you can slide them off.You chuckle as we kiss. You part from my lips for a moment "No, sexy thong?" you ask me teasing. I smile at you as you pull my pants down I let my flip-flops fall to the floor so my pants can slide to the floor. You run your hands up both my legs then grip my hips. You pull me closer to you and press your hips against me. I can feel you between my legs. Then you slide your hands up my side pulling my shirt up I raise my arms up for you as you pull my shirt off. Then you quickly pull of your shirt and I help you undo your belt. I pull down your Jeans and your boxer. I let out a huge gasp. You're so big and thick. You are almost completly hard. My hands grasp your shoulders and I run my fingers down your chest, your stomach and then around to grab your ass. I spread my legs wide for you and pull you toward me. Im already wet with desire, so you enter me with one quick thrust. We both moan at this sensation. You feel so good.'oh your so big, mmmm you feel so good baby'. My fingernails run up your back. You move your head and grab one of my breast you take my nipple in your mouth and suck on it gently. You move out of me slowly and then ram back into me. Suddenly I here your machines sound. 'Oh god.. Please Don't Stop...It feels so good.' You smile at me as you continue to suck my breast. With your other hand you role my other nipple. You thrust in and out of me. Your so big. With each thrust it feels like you go deeper in me. 'Oh baby...Fuck.....you feel so good'. My arms are wrapped around you, pulling you closer to me.You lift your head, my nipples are sensitive to the cool are in the room they are red and tingle from all the attention you have given them. You thrust in and out of me. You moan loadly with each thrust. You fuck so good. 'Oh god...fuck me.. oh yeah...god..mmmm'.You kiss my neck and slowly kiss a trail to my lips. Your hands push me back gently so that I am leaning on my elbows. Your hands run from my neck down to my stomach. You run your hands over my belly ring then my tattoo and then you reach my slit. My breast bounce with each thrust. I watch as you circle my clit. My clit is hard and your hands are driving me insane. 'I'm cumming! oh Fuck! Don't stop....ohmygod....mmm....fuck' your hands continue to circle my clit as you thrust in and out of me. I moan loadly and my hips jerk around as you fuck me harder 'oh mmm....fuck..your driving me crazy..oh.' Im so hot for you. I have a hard time holding myself up because you made me orgasm so hard. Your hands slow down. You have a wicked smile on your face. Im out of breath you pound into me harder then you have this whole time. suddenly I feely your body tense. You start to rub my clit hard and fast again. Suddenly I'm cumming again. 'Oh my good fuck... mmmm that feels....mmmm fuck.' My body trembles and my muscles tense around you. I feel you jerk inside of me. We both moan loadly. I can feel your load filling deep inside me."God, your awesome mmm" You pull me up and kiss me.'That felt so good. Oh.' I feel you soften inside me as we kiss. Suddenly we're aware of our suroundings again. You pull out of me. I feel empty without you. You pull on your pants. I slide off the folding table. We each dress. I take my clothes out of the dryer. And you put your clothes in the dryers. I fold my clothes quietly."So, whats your name?" you ask me

My Morning and Night Time Routines

Every morning....its usually the same. I go pee, then after I wash my hands and I brush my teeth. Then I go in the shower. Every morning I masturbate in the shower. I don't wake up until I do. Like this morning I washed my hair, my body, then I shaved. Then I had to masturbate. I sat in the tub while the shower was on and rubbed my clit and finger fucked myself. It wasn't even like I took my time or thought of anyone. I just had to cum or my day wouldn't feel right. Most mornings I might think of someone or a favorite sexual postion, but today I didn't. I don't know if other people do this. But who cares? It probably burns a lot of calories and it relieves stress.
I do the same thing at night. I'll be in my bed laying down ready for bed and I'll masturbate before I go to bed. At night I always take my time, because I like to use all my energy. I'll play with my tits and tease myself. I like to slowly run my hands down my stomach and up my thighs. Then when I do finally start to play with my clit and my pussy I'll keep stopping when Im almost ready to cum. Finally when I do orgasm its really great. I go to the bathroom and wash up. Then Im so tired and I have the deepest sleep. Its great. If you can't sleep masturbate.... It really helps.... Well...just thought I'd share....

Hello-My name is Nina....

Welcome to my first blog. I hope you enjoy and visit regularly. Let me share a little about myself. Im 20 years old and a college student. I have no boyfriend and I'm happily single. I wanted to start a blog, because there is this whole side of me that very few people have seen. People seem to think of me as this girl that is fun and exciting, and good for a laugh. Men tend to look at me as this gentle good girl. Well I am .....but not all the time.

Sex is something that is healthy and natural, but at the same time there is this negative image people can have about you if you are a girl that has sex outside of relationships. I really don't want to be in a relationship right now....Why should I? Im still exploring my sexuality and having fun, So I go out, hang out with different guys, have sex, and enjoy myself. Still I never go too crazy, like I want to -because I worry to much...

But Im starting not to care. Really what does it matter... You only live life once. So I hope you enjoy as I share my different experiences.... They may be funny, sexy, weird, or plain CRAZY....!!!!