Im a whore...

The other night, Mark did something rather unexpected. Usually he is very predictable. We went out to eat, just the two of us. It was nice, concedering none of us really did anything major for Valentine's Day. I don't think any of us really think of that as a major holiday or anything. Its just been a while since I dressed up to go out for dinner. It was a nice small Italian restaurant and a nice treat. If that wasn't great enough, Mark also surprised me on the way home.

Mark, loved what I was wearing. Of course he mentioned it the whole time we were out, which I love. Mark is not much for having sex with the risk of getting caught. We have done it a few times, but only because I started it. So when Mark turned into a parking lot and drove to the back of a store, I was really surprised. We ended up having sex outside leaning against the car. It was fun though... My dress hiked up around my waist, panties pulled to the side, like a back-alley-hooker. I like that dirty quality sex can have some times... It was just a quick fuck-after all it is the middle of winter! But it was exciting, especially knowing Mark was so into it...

Not much of a tale, but still something.... and I loved it!

2 days in a row!

Wow... Hopefully this will be a regular thing. So maybe I should expand a little on this new living arrangment. Like I said before... Laura has her own room and Mark and Me have a room. We do sleep together most nights, but some nights Mark and I sleep alone. Other nights I will sleep just with Laura.

I think a typical night would be us all laying in the bed. Mark isn't much of a cuddler after he's asleep so me and Laura curl up together. Usually Laura leaves after I go to bed. I think its just because we are all on a little queen size bed, which can suck a lot of the time.

Some things people might think are that I have crazy sex. I think I have sex just as often as I did when I was just with Mark. I think this is probably because I have sex with them at the same time usually. Also women are extremely moody, so if Laura and I aren't in the mood/sad/angry/etc., then nothing really happens.
I don't know if this paints a clearer picture... probably not. I will say that Laura is great and Mark is too.
Laura and I did get into a little arguement today, about the shower of all thing! I wanted to jump in with her because I was running late and didn't want to wait. Laura just flipped out about privacy, and giving her some alone time. I of course started crying. Woman are so emotional! Crazy- I still don't think I did anything wrong, but she was slamming everything in the kitchen, being dramatic-of course. I know she was PMSing. I don't know how Mark deals with it all to be honest. Laura does get over things quickly, though, and she has a way of explaining things so I always see her side and she respects my opinions. I feel like Im gushing.... maybe Im still in a Valentine's Day mode...

My Reality

Wow... all of my other blogger friends are gone It’s crazy... I've been off of here for over 6 months.. It’s a new year, I started student teaching. I’m going to have my degree soon, so I'll be a real teacher! I’m still with Mark... he's great, the love of my life. Our sex life is still great. I still have some other people I make out/mess around with. Mark is still okay with it.

I've been kind of into some 'kinky' things lately. I love nipple clamps now, using candle wax, some spanking, being tied up and blind folded. I always did some of these things, but it’s on a new level now. Mark isn't as into it as me, but likes how excited it gets me. Also my girlfriend (I call her that now, b/c I love her so much!) got me into anime/manga porn... we watch it together and do more of the intense stuff Mark doesn't like so much. We got a bigger apartment and Laura (my girlfriend) has her own room, sometimes she sleeps with me and Mark. It’s not a traditional set up and I never thought I would care about her like I do. I think Mark sees her more as a best friend, although lately I find them cuddling more often. He's said that he loves her, but I know that it is different than how he loves me. The same way my relationship with each of them is different.

It makes me happy. We're making it work. I never thought we would be able to do it. I was in denial about falling for Laura for a while, I swore up and down that she was just a friend I fooled around with and liked to kiss, but then I realized how much I would miss her, and when she dated a girl I didn't like for a while it hit me (with some help from Mark) that I did in fact love her. It was a crazy time... but I ended up getting the girl.

Looking back on it, I guess it’s just how I am. I even swore up and down that I didn't like Mark at first, it’s been almost a year that we've been together. Liam is in my past. I saw him when I went to visit my family and I know it just wasn't meant to be. He wanted me to be someone else; there was a lot of emotional abuse in that relationship, on both sides. Mark gets me... when I get mad, he lets me vent and he knows that I don't really mean half of what I say. He is so calm and it takes a lot to get him upset.

I didn't post for a long time, because some loved ones were ill. Plus the move to a different apartment was a little stressful. My grades started to go down the drain for a while too, but I managed to fix them on time....

I never met my email buddie... we lost touch. I don't really want to meet anyone else anymore. Being with 2 people is enough. I still see some other people, like I stated before, but with Mark and Laura there with me....

I've experienced threesomes now... on a regular a bases. The first time, was with Mark and another person, and it just wasn't good at all, just awkward. When it is the three of us, though, it is just beautiful, I think. The first time after Laura and I had finally figured out our relationship (we had slept with Mark together before) I actually cried when were all done and laying down, not balling just like a few tears of joy, it was so wonderful. I knew we all loved each other. Sometimes we have other people with us just making out and cuddling... pretty bizarre considering where we all were less than a year ago. This has been a major year, and now I’m more settled. I don’t go out as much. I enjoy just being home. I know it all has gone so fast, but I really just want it all to last…


I know this update was completely out of order… but if you need to you can read some of the old posts to figure it out.