I Called Him.....

Okay, so I ended up calling the ex…
He came over and as soon as I opened the door he started kissing me. We didn’t even make it to the bed room He started tugging at my clothes and took them off of me…. He had me lay on the floor and he went down on me… he is the best at oral and I’m not just exaggerating. He really takes his time and drives me crazy! I came like 3 times then we fucked. He ended up sleeping over (not part of the original plan). He left this morning… after joining my morning shower -he helped me with my routine and then some!
It was really fun and it felt so good. But….. right before he left he kissed me good bye and then he said what I didn’t want to hear…. I love you…. and he gave me a kiss. It was sweet but I could tell he really meant it and not in a friend way. To him it is way more than sex.
The bigger problem is now I want to have sex with him again. And he already sent me a text about hanging out later and maybe doing more. We’re good friends now, but I have a funny feeling he’s trying to go back to a relationship, and I don’t want it. AAhhh! This sucks!
I’ll try not to worry about it…. Just let it rest a while before we have sex again…. Maybe I should just find a new hook up guy so I don’t hurt my ex… that’ll probably be better. But we fit so well together, I think I’ll just remind him that I don’t want to be in a relationship again…that’s what I’ll do…