My Reality
Wow... all of my other blogger friends are gone It’s crazy... I've been off of here for over 6 months.. It’s a new year, I started student teaching. I’m going to have my degree soon, so I'll be a real teacher! I’m still with Mark... he's great, the love of my life. Our sex life is still great. I still have some other people I make out/mess around with. Mark is still okay with it.
I've been kind of into some 'kinky' things lately. I love nipple clamps now, using candle wax, some spanking, being tied up and blind folded. I always did some of these things, but it’s on a new level now. Mark isn't as into it as me, but likes how excited it gets me. Also my girlfriend (I call her that now, b/c I love her so much!) got me into anime/manga porn... we watch it together and do more of the intense stuff Mark doesn't like so much. We got a bigger apartment and Laura (my girlfriend) has her own room, sometimes she sleeps with me and Mark. It’s not a traditional set up and I never thought I would care about her like I do. I think Mark sees her more as a best friend, although lately I find them cuddling more often. He's said that he loves her, but I know that it is different than how he loves me. The same way my relationship with each of them is different.
It makes me happy. We're making it work. I never thought we would be able to do it. I was in denial about falling for Laura for a while, I swore up and down that she was just a friend I fooled around with and liked to kiss, but then I realized how much I would miss her, and when she dated a girl I didn't like for a while it hit me (with some help from Mark) that I did in fact love her. It was a crazy time... but I ended up getting the girl.
Looking back on it, I guess it’s just how I am. I even swore up and down that I didn't like Mark at first, it’s been almost a year that we've been together. Liam is in my past. I saw him when I went to visit my family and I know it just wasn't meant to be. He wanted me to be someone else; there was a lot of emotional abuse in that relationship, on both sides. Mark gets me... when I get mad, he lets me vent and he knows that I don't really mean half of what I say. He is so calm and it takes a lot to get him upset.
I didn't post for a long time, because some loved ones were ill. Plus the move to a different apartment was a little stressful. My grades started to go down the drain for a while too, but I managed to fix them on time....
I never met my email buddie... we lost touch. I don't really want to meet anyone else anymore. Being with 2 people is enough. I still see some other people, like I stated before, but with Mark and Laura there with me....
I've experienced threesomes now... on a regular a bases. The first time, was with Mark and another person, and it just wasn't good at all, just awkward. When it is the three of us, though, it is just beautiful, I think. The first time after Laura and I had finally figured out our relationship (we had slept with Mark together before) I actually cried when were all done and laying down, not balling just like a few tears of joy, it was so wonderful. I knew we all loved each other. Sometimes we have other people with us just making out and cuddling... pretty bizarre considering where we all were less than a year ago. This has been a major year, and now I’m more settled. I don’t go out as much. I enjoy just being home. I know it all has gone so fast, but I really just want it all to last…
I know this update was completely out of order… but if you need to you can read some of the old posts to figure it out.
I've been kind of into some 'kinky' things lately. I love nipple clamps now, using candle wax, some spanking, being tied up and blind folded. I always did some of these things, but it’s on a new level now. Mark isn't as into it as me, but likes how excited it gets me. Also my girlfriend (I call her that now, b/c I love her so much!) got me into anime/manga porn... we watch it together and do more of the intense stuff Mark doesn't like so much. We got a bigger apartment and Laura (my girlfriend) has her own room, sometimes she sleeps with me and Mark. It’s not a traditional set up and I never thought I would care about her like I do. I think Mark sees her more as a best friend, although lately I find them cuddling more often. He's said that he loves her, but I know that it is different than how he loves me. The same way my relationship with each of them is different.
It makes me happy. We're making it work. I never thought we would be able to do it. I was in denial about falling for Laura for a while, I swore up and down that she was just a friend I fooled around with and liked to kiss, but then I realized how much I would miss her, and when she dated a girl I didn't like for a while it hit me (with some help from Mark) that I did in fact love her. It was a crazy time... but I ended up getting the girl.
Looking back on it, I guess it’s just how I am. I even swore up and down that I didn't like Mark at first, it’s been almost a year that we've been together. Liam is in my past. I saw him when I went to visit my family and I know it just wasn't meant to be. He wanted me to be someone else; there was a lot of emotional abuse in that relationship, on both sides. Mark gets me... when I get mad, he lets me vent and he knows that I don't really mean half of what I say. He is so calm and it takes a lot to get him upset.
I didn't post for a long time, because some loved ones were ill. Plus the move to a different apartment was a little stressful. My grades started to go down the drain for a while too, but I managed to fix them on time....
I never met my email buddie... we lost touch. I don't really want to meet anyone else anymore. Being with 2 people is enough. I still see some other people, like I stated before, but with Mark and Laura there with me....
I've experienced threesomes now... on a regular a bases. The first time, was with Mark and another person, and it just wasn't good at all, just awkward. When it is the three of us, though, it is just beautiful, I think. The first time after Laura and I had finally figured out our relationship (we had slept with Mark together before) I actually cried when were all done and laying down, not balling just like a few tears of joy, it was so wonderful. I knew we all loved each other. Sometimes we have other people with us just making out and cuddling... pretty bizarre considering where we all were less than a year ago. This has been a major year, and now I’m more settled. I don’t go out as much. I enjoy just being home. I know it all has gone so fast, but I really just want it all to last…
I know this update was completely out of order… but if you need to you can read some of the old posts to figure it out.
posted by Nina at 2/20/2007 03:24:00 PM
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