Mark and Me

So everything is going great now. Mark said he loves me... And I told him I loved him! I feel silly, because I wanted to be single so bad. Well, I guess I still am single, but it feels different. I still see Liam... But I already knew I loved him. Liam has been spending the night about two or three times a week. Mark is here a lot, and sometimes I stay at his place. It's all seems so surreal.

I want to surprise Mark, so I invited Laura to come over on Wednesday and spend the night. I hope it goes well. Mark did like watching us go at it at her birthday, maybe we can put on a little show for him. I never go down on her. It's just something I can't see myself doing with a girl, but it is fun having it done to me! Maybe Mark can go down on her and join in.

I don't know what Liam would have said if he was at Laura's. I told him about it and what happened. He was mad and I guess happy that Mark had stopped it from going too far. I think Liam is starting not to hate Mark. I would love it if they both could get along. Liam was staying over one night, and Mark came by without thinking and it was so awkward. Mark tries hard to be nice, but Liam is just so cold and distant. Liam would never want to see me with anyone else. He knows but doesn't want to see any of it. Mark is the opposite, he really doesn't mind. He wants to be involved and is happy that I feel comfortable sharing everything I want to do with him.

Well, Im just happy Mark loves me! Its so great. Im smiling from ear to ear...

A Birthday Party....

The other day I went to my friend Laura's 22 birthday party at her house. I wasn't in a good mood, because Mark had decided to come to the party with a date. His date was gorgeous, her name was Beth she had beautiful green eyes and a great body. I was so jealous and I hated seeing Mark with someone. I know we are both seeing people, but doing it in front of me really bothered me. I tried to be nice and mingle with all of the people at the party. Every time I glanced over at Mark he was either kissing Beth or holding her hand. I was so mad!
Then Beth went to go to the bathroom and Mark came up to me and kissed my neck, and he whispered in my ear "jealous?". Then he walked away. I was mad because he was with Beth and mad because he could tell I was jealous.
So I decided I would have get him jealous. I knew Mark found Laura attractive because I had asked him before. Laura and I had made out before so I knew she would be up for it. So I went to the kitchen to help Laura clean up a bit and asked her to help me. She was all for it, so we waited for Mark and Beth to come in from the patio. And when they came in we started making out. I thought I had succeed in making Mark jealous, because he had walked out of the kitchen, but I soon heard him yelling for everyone to go to the kitchen to watch 'Nina with the Birthday Girl'. Soon we were surrounded by a ton of guys, half of which were drunk, cheering us on and yelling for us to take off each others clothes. I was turned on, but more than anything I was kind of scared to have so many strangers staring at me. I backed away from Laura, but when I glanced at Mark and saw the look of victory on Mark's face it was enough to keep me going. I pulled my shirt off, and surprisingly Laura did the same. We continued making out, and before long Laura was taking off my bra and pushing me against the counter, her hips pressing against me. My face was burning red and I was so turned on. Laura rubbed my breasts and soon she was planting kissed down my neck to my breast. I know somewhere in this time Beth and some other girls had walked away in disgust, expressing how awful they thought we were, I was happy to see that Mark did not follow her. While Laura played with my nipples I pulled her jean skirt up around her waist so that everyone could see her ass and the cute g-string panties she had on. The guys were so quiet watching us and I know I was breathing heavy. Soon Laura had began to unbutton my jeans and was pulling down my pants and my panties.
Laura has fingered me before and she knows that I love being treated. I have the problem of never returning the favor, something she has complained about before. Well soon she was kissing down my stomach and making her way down to my pussy.
Suddenly there was this huge noise and me and Laura snapped to reality to see some guy with a bloody nose that Mark had punched in the face for walking to close to us. With that our little show was over. Mark ended up yelling at me and Laura to put our clothes back on and cursing us out for about an half hour for what we did.
When we went back to the living room almost everyone had left the party. Beth was crying and mad at Mark for taking her to a party that was so 'sick'. I apologized to her and told her that I was sorry for making her so uncomfortable. She completely ignored me and yelled at Mark for having such 'psycho friends'. I could tell this made Mark mad, and he told her he would take her home and that he never wanted to hear from her again. Then he yelled at me and told me he would take me home before I did anything else.
I said bye to Laura and told her I would call her the next day. Luckily she didn't seem mad at all, she seemed to have a good time on her birthday.
The ride in the car was silent. Beth was sniffling the entire way home. After he had dropped her off, I refused to sit in the front seat. When we got to my apartment he walked me up. When we got inside we yelled at each other for about an hour. I was crying and just so mad. He said that I got way carried away, and that if he hadn't been there some of the guys could have hurt us. He said it was fun but when we started talking off clothes that we had gone to far. He said I was lucky no one had a camera or phone to record what we were doing, because that may have caused me to lose my job and that now I would probably have a bad reputation in the school. He said that things like that should only be done around people you trust and that almost all the people at the party were strangers.
Needless to say, I was a mess. I was sobbing and shaking. He hugged me and said he was sorry but that he cares about me. I yelled at him for bringing someone to the party. He said that I was the one that wanted us to keep dating other people. I told him he should have told me first. I ended up calming down and Mark stayed with me for the night.
The next day Mark told me that he really was turned on. We had great sex, and we're both okay now. I am happy Mark was there and he did make a good point, I've never heard him yell before and I guess he had a good reason too. Besides, I've yelled a him before over some stupid things. I told him that I hate Beth, and he told me he didn't really like her and there was no way he would ever talk to her again. I guess we just need to communicate a little more. I still want to keep seeing Liam and I don't mind if Mark and Liam see other people. Something about Beth really bothered me, maybe it was the fact that she looked at me like I was a bad person. I don't know. I think if he went out with Laura I wouldn't care because she has a great personality and is open minded. This party made me realize a lot. I think I am starting to really care about Mark... Maybe even love him.

Busy Busy...

Okay, so it has been a while. I’ve been busy with school and work… and life.
Mark and I have bee hanging out a lot. He’s becoming a good friend and he’s great in bed. Sometimes I catch him staring at me a little bit too long, but I pretend I don’t notice, because he already knows I don’t want a relationship.
Liam, my ex, has spent a few nights over. I had really bad cramps and he came over and put a heating pad on my tummy and gave me a back massage. We cuddled, this is usually not my thing, but I really needed it. So now he's spent the night 3 days in a row.
Liam and I have been broken up for over a year and a half… he broke up with me right before we were about to move in together, he said he wasn’t ready to be that serious (although we practically did live together already). It took me a long time to get over him, especially since we were still friends (and still slept together). Liam eventually realized that he did want to move in with me and that he wanted to be with me, he even proposed. But I was only 19 years old, and I realized there was more that I wanted. Liam is a great guy, but he is also very traditional and he can be very closed minded sometimes. Liam and I were together for a long time (3 years) and I want to enjoy the freedom of being single.
So I told Liam I’m also talking with someone else, I didn’t want him to have a false impression that we are dating or anything. I’ve already told Mark about my ex and that we still see each other sometimes, he said it was okay. Liam was mad at first but then he realized, he is the one that broke up with me and that he originally encouraged me to move on and see other people.
So, I guess everything is going well…Confusing but I’m not complaining…