~Liam~

So Liam never returned any of my calls...
Liam left all of his clothes and things here, and I wonder if he plans on getting them. I am very pathetic, I've been sleeping with his hoodies every night.
I just can't believe that it is going to end like this. Liam is the guy I lost my virginity to, the first guy I ever loved, and has always been there for me. I guess I fooled myself when I said I was over him before, but I don't know I just am so mad and sad and just awful.
I thought he would get over it. I mean he's been dealing with me in my 'rebellious phase' and he didn't leave me when I pushed him aside. He knew I was with Mark... It's not like I was sneaking around. I slipped up-he should be a little more understanding.
As if dealing with this isn't enough, I now have to deal with all of my friends saying, 'I knew this was bound to happen'. I don't even feel like going out of the house. I'm scared I will run into him somewhere.
Last night Mark was over and we were in the middle of having sex and I just burst out crying. I'm going crazy! Luckily Mark is really understanding, but I still hope Liam might come over and just forgive me. It probably won't happen though, because we have never gone that long without talking. Liam and Mark are so different, but I need both of them...